I was cleaning out some files over the weekend and found an old journal chronicling September-October 2001. I was living in my parents' house, recuperating from my latest clash with psychotic depression (sounds scarier than it actually was, basically depression + paranoia). I was apparently *so* psychotic, I wrote horrible songs with lyrics that make my eyeballs bleed. So of course I had to share! Check it out:
Sail Away
You say you'll reach the stars when you don't even get out of bed
Watch the world spin by you as you live through the dreams inside your head
What are all those sounds outside your window?
What are all those sounds outside your window?
You'll never know, you'll never know
You sail away, hide from yourself
You sail away, you sail away
From it all
I see you, you look so cool, your skin is oh so crystal clean
Now disinfect yourself, don't touch your face, you don't know where it's been
What makes your black eyes seem so hollow?
What makes your black eyes seem so hollow?
They're like open graves, like open graves
I don't know whether to slap you or to hide you
All I know is I hope I won't be like you
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As I lay on the ground
The sky looks so astounding
If I just take a step
From the cliff that I've made
Close my eyes, take a breath
Blow a kiss at the moon
I might look and see
What's up there for me
I write all these words
So one day you'll find them
And then when you read them
Throw your head back and laugh
Then reach back, hold your head
Hold your head and weep for me
And you'll be just fine
You'll be just fine
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Do any you guys have similar records of when you were young and thought you were deep? *head hanging in shame*
